Lessons of a 21 Day Yoga Challenge- Day 274: 365 Radical Self Love Project

Yesterday marked the completion of the 21 day yoga challenge.

I did not complete it as designed and I am totally ok with it.

Here is why:

During this challenge I was brought face to face with something within myself- my ego’s desire to look good. It became very clear to me that my major intention for doing this challenge was to prove to myself I could do it because doing it would make me look good to others in my life.

gentleWell thats all fine and dandy if I had made the choice while taking into consideration of all my other life commitments I had going on at the same time too- AND taking into consideration if the classes offered at the studio would actually harmoniously fit into my jammed schedule. Turns out they didn’t.

For the first week I really stressed myself out to get to yoga- completely anti-yoga- I know, I know 😉

The second week I loosened the reigns on myself and my egos super tight “looking good” grip.

I tuned into what my body actually needed.

I gave myself permission to be flexible, creative and honour my needs

6 Days straight of hot yoga, 1 hot yin class and 1 meditation a week just weren’t working for my body. It was too intense. My schedule didn’t really jive with the studio schedule and the hot classes were pretty much all I could make happen.

When I tuned into what my body wanted everything changed.
  • One day my body was craving a run- so instead of stressing to get to the studio I put on my runners and ran the seawall and enjoyed every second of it.
  • Other days my body craved meditation sessions- so I would load myself up with crystals and zen out in my living room.
  • And other days I made it to my mat in the studio.

I lost track of the amount of classes I took and there were days when I showed up for class and actually forgot about putting a star on the wall chart.

What I “got” about that was it was no longer about the recognition or putting a sticker on the wall (aka listening to the intensity of my ego) it was now about listening to my intuition, my body and my heart. I let my heart guide me day to day to the exact situation that would be best for me in the moment.

I’m so happy I did the challenge because it gave me even deeper perspective, a clearer understanding of my ego and the opportunity to surrender into my path and make the incredible call of what honestly works best for me.

Next time there is a yoga challenge I’ll be sure to put more thought and intention into whether I can honestly make it work or not. Until then I have a wonderful new practice of getting to practice 4-5 times a week. Perhaps that was part of the learning and lesson too 😉

Back to the mat and back to my heart ❤

Radical Self Love to the MAX!!!

Kels

Early Morning Intention Leads The Way To Awesomeness- Day 255: 365 Radical Self Love Project

Last night I made a promise.

A promise to myself.

I gave my word that I would get up at 5:55am and be at the first hot yoga class of the day at 6:30.

I did it and the inspirational impact was HUGE.

radical self love kelsey grant I was tired this morning because of course I wasn’t tired last night when my ego knew I was wanting to get up early. But even in the midst of being tired, I rolled out of bed and was out the door at 6:04.

My intention throughout my practice was to feel good. I made my choices on the depth of the postures based on what felt good to me in that moment.

When we set an intention often at some point our resistance to the intention will present itself. I am certain this happens for one reason only.

So that we can bring our intention to the ego flair.

Bring acceptance to the resistance.

Bring light into our shadow.

So that we can clear another layer that would otherwise hold us back from truly experiencing that which we have intended.

So this moment came up for me upon returning home. I was thinking thoughts that lead me to feel not so great. I began having thoughts of doubt and upset about the work I do and where I perceived I was at. In this moment I had a choice I could either let this story run or I could access my intention to lead me elsewhere.

I chose my intention.

Just because my intention was to feel good I couldn’t in the moment make that flash change of state. So I asked for help. I reached out to my partner and told him what I was feeling, what I was afraid of and got it out rationally. He offered some fabulous perspective and reframes which helped clear so much of the sticky energy out.

The energy still hadn’t quite cleared itself completely so I asked myself what do I need right now to feel good. My body said rest and my eyes were drawn to a particular crystal. So I listened. I grabbed the crystal put it in my left hand and had a mini nap. When I awoke I was bright, feeling clear and most importantly feeling good.

I went on to have an absolutely incredible day connecting with people all over the world, rocking interviews for Awesomeness Fest. I seriously had the honour of talking with some of the most kind, inspiring and uplifting souls today.

Abundance on every level- feeling goodness on every level- and it all was possible because I kept my word to myself.

I did exactly what I told myself I would.

I embraced the flow of the day and asked for support when I needed it.

I allowed the energy of possibility and goodness to fill me right up.

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Setting this clear intention and honouring my integrity were the two fundamentals in creating a day filled with inspiration, love, connection and abundance. This 21 Day Yoga Challenge is calling me to play at a bigger level and is having a substantial impact and it was only day 3 😉

Excited what the remaining 18 days have in store!!!

Radical Self Love to the MAX!!!

Kels